but i don't

I've been trying to hype up Jake's upcoming "vacation" to him for the past few days. First he was so excited that he wanted to "put onna chuck t's and go right now in ma' jams". Then he was okay about it and wondered what toys he can bring and how many days away it all added up to.

None, by the way. About the toys, not about the days. It is six days, and he has plenty of toys where he's going and I don't want to be the one listening to the whining if Baby McQueen and Blue Bunny don't make it home.

Last night before bed I asked him if he was excited to go on his vacation at Kat Kat's and Mom Mom's and he said "i'm excited, but i'm not. but i want to, but i don't." (This is his way of saying kinda sorta. The boy hasn't grasped the concept of middle ground yet). Then he said "hey i have an idea!"

"What's your idea?"

"how about i go on my vacation and take you (nose poke) inna bag? you can come-a kat kat's too! it will be so much fun! i'm excited for that!"

"But I need some time with my family, my big cousin is getting married, and I'm going to see my mommy, and my aunts and uncles, and me and daddy are going to drive through the Keys for a couple days. I'm going to have fun down there while you have fun up here."

"but you will have fun. but you won't. you're gonna cry because you're gonna miss me so much. you're gonna say 'boo hoo hoo, i miss my jacob' and you'll be sad."

And then I cried for reals.

I'm such a sap. I would be greatly comforted if someone else told me they were laying in a four foot long bed last night round about 8 o'clock, crying into the neck of a two year old because you have fun when you are away from him, but you don't, and you need some time away from life, but you don't.

No? Anyone crying last night away from a babyneck?

Okay, anyone in a tiny bed?

Jeez. How about laying down? Did anyone lay down last night at all?

Is this thing on?