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I'm trying to go to sleep. I swear. I have turned my phone off three times because I can't help but check my Google Reader and Twitter stream to see what everyone is saying. I have earplugs in. I'm typing this with one eye open. But I just had to tell you that last time I turned the phone off and laid down like I meant it and closed my eyes and tossed it out there that I'm pretty thankful for all my stuff and it would be nice if Jake made it through the night I added our new president elect in there too. I did it without even thinking about it. Rest assured I never thought about the safety of our current president. Its a nice surprise to care about and admire your nation's leader.

I guess this is what hope feels like. My heart seems bigger. My soul seems bigger. I feel open. Excited. Nervous. Dependent. Trusting.

I don't expect Obama to do everything he proposes in the next four years. I don't really want him too. That's an awful lot. But if he can pull off paving the way for change I will consider his presidency a success. I am more than willing to make little sacrifices over the next few years if it means my child won't have to suffer or struggle when he is old enough to realize what is going on outside his front door.