One of Jake's first words was "clock".
Well, almost. He didn't get his L's down until much later.

One of Jake's first words was...

Anyway, I tell Jake a story about clocks every once in awhile. It goes something like:

"When you were a tiny little baby in my belly, I would go to the doctor and he would put a special machine against my tummy so I could hear your heart beat. It was the most beautiful sound in the world because it let me know that you were happy and healthy and safe and warm and growing.
And then when you were born, you used to lay your head on my chest and listen to my heart beat. It was the most beautiful sound in the world because it let you know that I was close by, keeping you happy and healthy and safe and warm and growing.
Every time you hear a clock go 'tick tock tick tock' you can always think of how important our heart beats are to one another and how much we love each other and how we will always keep each other happy and healthy and safe and warm and growing.
The End."

So I bought him a little alarm clock for his birthday, which he loved until he accidentally set the alarm off one day. Now he hates it.

Jake hates noise.

I swear I didn't train him this way. Some problems are just inborn I think.

He screamed and cried and when I asked him what was the big deal, because I told him that the alarm would go off if he played with the little switch and clocks were meant to be seen and heard but never played with he said, "oh mommy, it was awful. why would your heart ever hurt me like that?"

Gah.

And in other news, April 15th will always be tax day, will always be Hope's annivbirthday, will always be my first boss' birthday, will always be the day my granddad died, and will always be the first day that my boy ever looked me in the eye and said "i don't like you". I knew it was coming. And it did.

It didn't hurt too bad because it was a final ploy in getting me to stay in his room last night after telling me "he loves me, he needs me, he can't live without me near him, that we are best friends, that we are very good buddies, that i make him happy and when i am gone it is very very very sad, and that- and I quote- the world is too big and scary and dark without me next to him".